Hey friends,
I’m a 22 Catholic convert in progress.
Diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, I navigate life as a complex system every day.

I recently returned to the Church after a long season of doubt and confusion. I’m excited to enter RCIA and receive Baptism, trying to order my life around Christ in the meantime. I’m committed to celibacy as an offering to God. For a long time, I drifted toward Anglican theology, convinced that papal authority and apostolic succession were on shaky ground. Even then, I couldn’t honestly deny the depth and consistency of the Church’s teachings. Over time, the intellectual resistance started to crack. My health had been very weak for years, and I reached a point where prayer felt like the only real option left. In that place, I experienced concrete moments of help and grace that I could not explain away. For example, while I was working at the Walt Disney Company, I had been hit by a car going easily 35-40 mph/(56-64kmh) and didn’t sustain any injuries. I don’t understand it, but that’s how God works.

Those moments pulled me back toward God and, eventually, toward the Catholic Church. Now I’m slowly learning to live in that grace day by day.

When I’m not praying, reading, or resting, I unwind with games: Minecraft building, Valorant, Chess, Go, Minesweeper, and Sudoku. I also attend paintball tournaments and LARP-ing. Strategy and problem-solving give my mind somewhere steady to go when everything else feels chaotic. I’m still very much a work in progress, but I am trying to walk forward with honesty, faith, and a quiet trust in Christ.

Deo Gratias my friends.