In 1994, a cousin sister in Kerala, India interacted with me for a few days and told me passionately that she felt soo close to me. She asked me to write letters to her. After she got married, I send her a letter and a Christmas card. She did not respond. In 1995, I visited her parents house and she called. One cousin was nice to ask her to talk to me. She put the phone down. My dad told her dad that I sent a message saying that I was expected a letter from. She did not answer. I never heard or saw her ever again. My dad sued her dad for land. if I talk to my parents about visiting India they will try to stop me. After feeling this for years, I have a feeling of dying before my parents to do to escape their control.