Ive come to realize that I am addicted to way more than just drugs. I have an addictive personality. I abuse everything ive tried. Ive been clean for a little over eight years (i think) but i still struggle with cravings. I do my best to follow God and yet i fall short every single day. ive broken all of the ten commandments. I desensitized myself to the Holy Spirit with willful sinning. I need prayer for my conscience. I want the tenderness that i had as a kid. The Holy Spirit says that He will be with me to grant me discernment and self awareness. I know this to be true. Hes been working in my life and God the father has shown me in numerous ways that He still believes in me and forgives me for my sin. Please pray that i might be able to forgive and believe in myself. God bless
Heavenly Father, we lift up Norman to You with humility and hope. Thank You for the honesty in his heart and the courage to speak truthfully about his struggles. Lord, You know his pain, his past, and every step he’s taken toward healing. He desires to walk closely with You again, to feel the tenderness of conscience he once knew, and to be renewed by Your Spirit.
Father, please restore what has been dulled by sin. Rekindle that deep sensitivity to the Holy Spirit and give Norman the strength to resist every craving that seeks to pull him away from You. Remind him daily that Your love is stronger than his failures, that You still believe in him, and that nothing can separate him from Your grace. Help Norman forgive himself as You have forgiven him. Fill him with self-awareness, discernment, and hope. Let him know that he is not alone and that his story is not over. Heal him deeply, Lord, from addiction, shame, and the weight of the past. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen.