I’m in desperation.
I have been with my husband since I was 17, and married for four years. Unfortunately I have struggled with my mental health for those four years, anorexia, and last year ended up in hospital. Last year when doing my masters I struggled with depression, anxiety, panic, and was a mess. I blamed my husband for lots; shouted and screamed; cried; we only argued; and I think he had enough. We didn’t look after our marriage, and we were increasingly unhappy. He left. He told me he’s done, he no longer wears a ring, and we are no longer speaking. He says he’s done. And i know he’s slept with someone.
The hardest thing is there is so much love between us; I feel the ground shakes between us; I can think of nothing else; I am utterly, wholly and completely in love with him; but my heart and thoughts last year became hardened with hate. And now he has closed off his heart to me. And I’m so, so unhappy. We aren’t talking and I don’t know what to do.
I pray for God’s miracle. I pray for God to reach the heart of my spouse, soften him, let him know my love, and show him hope for a way through; for a new future for us ; for a marraige, not filled with hate, but with love, and worthy of God. I pray for God’s will, he does not want Seperation, I pray he can reach us both and heal us. I pray that the enemey and Tempattaiton, and the voices of other people, speak of reconcialiation. I pray that he does not listen to temptation, and does not stray, but comes back to the marriage and to me.
Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts that are burdened and in need of Your divine intervention. Lord, we lift up this marriage that has faced many trials and challenges, asking for Your healing touch. We pray for fdgfdg and her husband, that You would soften both of their hearts, fill them with love, and remove the bitterness and pain that has settled between them. Restore their relationship, Lord, and bring reconciliation where there is brokenness.
Father, we ask that You protect their hearts from temptation and the voices that seek to pull them apart. Guide them both toward forgiveness, healing, and understanding, so they may rebuild their marriage on the foundation of Your love. We trust in Your will and Your desire for unity, and we pray for the strength and grace to follow Your path. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen.