The last two weeks have been such a mental struggle
I felt so dismissed at my 17 week appointment, I thought we were on the same page about additional heartbeat checks but she didn’t directly offer it to me. I really wanted to leave that day with a “see you in a week or two” but that’s not what happened. Then there was the fear of PPROM, then I got a cold, then I almost fainted in the shower, then I took celexa and had a severe panic attack as a reaction, then I got brushed off by my OB and told that it’s just my anxiety and has nothing to do with the drug so I should keep taking it, then I booked a private ultrasound for reassurance, then I felt non-stop kicks the following day, and today….I’ve felt hardly anything at all… nothing as distinct as it was yesterday. I’m heartbroken, I’m spiraling, and I feel so alone