My husband is an addict. He’s been lying to me cheating stealing money and sexually abusing me for over 30 years. He keeps promising me. It will get better. It never does. I am older and alone. I have no family and no one to help me. If I leave, I won’t have any health insurance. I just don’t know what to do. I really hate my life and think about killing myself every day.
Don’t tell me it will get better because I know it won’t. I just want to know why God hates me so much. All I have done is taken care of my family and everyone else my whole life yet nothing works out for me. So why does God hate me?
I don’t know how much longer I can take all of this. Not living seems like so much better option than suffering every day.
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greater is he that is in me, than he who is of the earth.
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Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts heavy and broken, bringing the pain of Your child, Ijustcant435. Lord, You see every wound, every tear cried in secret, and the anguish that has gone on for decades. You are not blind to her suffering, and You are not deaf to her cries. Father, we lift up this precious soul who feels abandoned, unloved, and hopeless. Wrap her in Your comfort. Let her know that You do not hate her, you love her with an everlasting love. Remind her, even now, that her life matters, that her suffering is not unseen, and that she is not alone.
Please rescue her from abuse, from despair, from every lie of the enemy telling her she is worthless. Send help, Lord, real help. Safe people, practical support, and divine direction. Let there be a way forward that doesn’t seem possible right now. God, we ask You to hold her heart, quiet the storm in her mind, and remind her that she is still Your beloved daughter. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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Lord please help your daughter in Jesus Name.
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I can certainly understand why you feel the way you do, you have lived through more than yourur share of pain and suffering without relief. When we turn to God in our time of need and we don’t receive the response we need or are expecting it feels as if God has turned away from us but please know that He will never leave you nor forsake you. Please hold on to His promises and never lose faith like Job. You are not the cause of your suffering and you need tangible help now. Is there anyone who can do an intervention or is your husband willing to attend counseling, do you have a church family? I pray you will find relief from your situation sooner rather than later and that God will show himself to you bringing you the peace, love and happiness that you deserve. Praying for blessing for you in Jesus mighty name!
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Thank you. The means a lot 
Thank you - god bless you
Thank you. Just your response helps me so much. I don’t really have anyone I can turn to which is why I come here. But knowing there are some people out there that care makes my burden a little bit lighter. May God bless you.
Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up our sister to you today for strength to continue on this difficult season in her life. Though the season is long and difficult, we ask that you would send your Holy Spirit to comfort her and make your presence known to her in a mighty way. Lord, remove all doubt that she is indeed your child, and as such you will never forsake her. Father, make clear that the lies of satan will not prevail. Greater is he who is in her who is stronger than the evil ones of the world. I pray for her husband that he is healed from all addictions, and that he comes to the knowledge of your saving grace. Lord, let the glory be yours and let your will for both of them be fulfilled in their lives. Lord, place a hedge of protection around her, open her eyes to your love. Lord, I ask that you would send people into her life who can help her by ministering to her and showing your true love for her. I praise you and give you all the glory. In JESUS I pray, Amen
God doesn’t hate you at all, and deep down you know that. No one can explain why some people seem to sail through life without major problems and others suffer greatly over & over. I have felt the same as you do now in the past. My husband used to beat me and I had no where to go, or at least I thought I had no where to go.
I don’t want to be patronising but there is ALWAYS a solution so don’t let yourself feel so trapped that you have no power - you do have power.
I can’t tell you or advise you exactly what to do but reach out to charities or organisations specifically there to help people in situations like you are in now. Or family? Friends?
I know you have been in this situation a long time - so was I - it seems like the norm but it isn’t. The man doesn’t deserve a caring person such as you.
Your confidence has dipped or maybe seems to have gone totally but you will retrieve it.
Please believe in yourself & trust that God will step in when He sees you mean it and that you are taking the first steps to make a better life for yourself.
If you can imagine a better life for yourself then it will become reality if you just take the steps to make it real & trust that God will be there beside you to guide you. I am praying for you yo have a wonderful life as you fully deserve.
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Lord, we continue to stand with our sister in this dark season of her life. We continue to plead that your presents become more and more clear to our sister. We pray that it be Your Will in her life that is fulfilled. Lord, we ask that you shorten the dark season in her life and restore your light. We praise you father, and ask all these things in the name of Our Lord Jesus the Christ, Amen